Purposed Place

Sometimes when I’m in tears, I feel so far from my goals, however in the same instance, I gain assurance from within that, this is not it. This is not final.

When I see smiles on faces, I know there is Hope.

I know My God

I know He loves me

and although it is rough now

He is still here to take care of me

and

I will get through this

Flawlessly

Empty

A broken Heart is like an empty sanctuary…

it was meant to be filled with life giving substance...

but now it just

empty...

No crowd no clot

Nothing stays there long...

and how could it...

when there are so many cracks and open spaces

Worst thing is

I don’t know how to fix it

there is no spirit anymore just a shell of what once was

and

I don’t know how to fill it

it used to overflow with hope and inspiration

but

I don’t know how to mend it

the foundation is broken nothing can hold it together

and

I don’t know if I should store it

because

there is no use in keeping something that is

Empty

Little Things

Its the small moments you have with others that are the most memorable. Like the inside joke with the college crew or simply the way he looks at you. These small encounters weave together to strengthen the relationship we have created .

The Great Commission

A real relationship with God through Jesus Christ means that you have grown to understand that it is not always easy or comfortable and the life you live is not lived for you but for the salvation of others. That is why you make it so you can bring others back to life (God). Live so others see the hope of your faith and salvation and want to live a new life. Life is more then career and achievements it's about discipleship. If God asked you to give up all you have so you can change the lives of all those around you; would you do it? Keep in mind God is a provider for those that love Him and do the works. So would you?

In Turn

To my favorites
I have missed you
It has been a while since i posted anything but hey what can i say?

In the more recent weeks
I have become very transparent emotionally
allowing myself to explore vulnerabilty

and oh what a challenge it has been I have come to found out that
I have a lot of work to do within

Its all about readjusting your perspective

To Be Continued.....

Just Wait

Wow what a movie

So i had the opportunity to go to a early viewing of "Just Wright"

I will not spoil the movie but I must say to all the women out there Just Wait.
Sometimes it is easy for us to get caught up in fairy tales, stories and dream men.
We get anxious when those around us seem to have it all together and we feel as though our time will not come.

Fret not my fearless sister

Your time will come. God is working some things out of you and in you.

He is making you the ultimate woman for the ultimate Man of God.

So don't settle! Don't be loved starved! Trust God! Have Faith!

All that is yours will come to you
Watch God, Wait on Him to move in His time in your life.

With Love Miss Logan

The Big Moments

The Big Moments
For as long as I can remember the big moments mattered the most
YOU NEVER MISSED A BIG MOMENT
First day of school
8th bridge building contest
Homecoming Parade and Court
Tears after not winning
Driver’s License
Scholarship ball
High school Graduation
Car accident with Friends
College Orientation
First Daughters Wedding
Moving in to the Dorm (sophomore year)
College Graduation
First big job
First Apartment
You were always there for the BIG moments
Middle school insecurities
I just don’t get fractions
My teachers think I act out because you are not here
The guidance counselor thinks I don’t do my homework on purpose; she is right
I talk back when I think you do not understand
High school low self esteem
I would rather not be here feeling so invisible
Abandon safety
Unsure of self
No sense of trust
I’m shy, Afraid to love, Unattached, Guarded
I love to laugh
My favorite colors are blue and black
I don’t like scary movies
I long to love and be loved back
I could ramble on and on but the point is there is so much more to me than the big moments sometimes I get sad thinking of small moments but then I realized those small moment you missed hold more value because I have grown to hold on to the
Big moments
For as long as I can remember the big moments mattered the most
YOU NEVER MISSED A BIG MOMENT

Trust

What does trust mean to you? What makes a person worthy to be trusted? Trust in God and nothing else matters.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths

Good day!

formspring.me

when is the last time you did something nice for someone else? what was it that you did?

Recently I was riding the train uptown and this older couple got on and the husband was holding the pole and the wife was just standing there so when the train took off she was falling so i caught her and brought her back to her feet!

Whatever you want to ask GO FOR IT? I promise to answer

formspring.me

what do u think about the state of black people in America today?

I feel that we need to reorganize, refocus, and discipline. We have forgotten how to live legendary lives by simply be excellent in all we chose to participate in, we allow our youth to think education is optional and Trends are mandatory! We promote good feelings instead of hard work. we live to get rich and get lost in all the endeavors, we take on others problems and mask our own... We glorify glitz and demean humble living. We need to bring back values, home training, education, moral, mentors and accountability! because guess what it is not solely about you!

Whatever you want to ask GO FOR IT? I promise to answer

formspring.me

What was the significance of your line name for Alpha Nu Omega?

The significance of being DS Irreplaceable to me is that I realized it is OK to be all of who I am and no matter what I am doing there is always someone waiting to take my place but I learned NO ONE can ever do me like I can and No One can have what or who is divinely mine

Whatever you want to ask GO FOR IT? I promise to answer

Just a Reminder He Loves me!

So It's Valentine's Day and me being the single Diva I am, I can't say I wanted to avoid the day or the couples and PDA...

I truly embrace the Day of love but...

My weekend was so great... I had an unique opportunity to see the
The Alvin Ailey American Dance Company (http://www.alvinailey.org);

It was awesome the seats were great (shouts to row 7) and my dates were awesome as well (Sherelle and Tiffany)
The Dancers were so powerful, they began with a Tribute to Otis Redding and ended the showing with a piece called "Love Stories" a unique blend of popular dances moves from theater to the dancehall
Not to mention the male dancers who illustrate exactly what the male form should look like and displayed it all so well while remaining tasteful and poised. I enjoyed every slow intentional moment!

Ok fast forward
V-day 2010

I began the day with the love of my life and expressing my gratitude for His continual love and mercy! I was reminded during the sermon that God loves me….Actively! Thank you God!

Got a few random text messages (ugh)

Continued with an awesome lunch with the ladies, which is always an adventure and the greatest conversation!

To the house I go Balloons and flowers for my mom, who always gets me a tangible expression of her love for V-day however this year she didn’t and it began my downward spiral into self afflicted internal wounds with thoughts like no one loves me, I should just go to sleep until Monday, etc . Not to mention someone is playing games with my heart and I just realized it and felt a lil stupid.

But then it hit me I am loved and loved well
I am beautiful and worthy of so much

God loves me so much that he does not allow just anything for me, so no day of any year should ever make me feel less than the Love God actively bestows upon me. He always provides the best (Alvin Ailey dancers row 7 yea) So I played Beautiful flower 3 times and I was reminded that GOD LOVES ME and I He!
Happy Valentine’s Day!

This is a song for every girl who's
Ever been through something she thought she couldn't make it through
I sing these words because
I was that girl too
Wanting something better than this
But who do I turn to

Now we're moving from the darkness into the light
This is the defining moment of our lives

'Cause you're beautiful like a flower
More valuable than a diamond
You are powerful like a fire
You can heal the world with your mind

There is nothing in the world that you cannot do
When you believe in you, who are beautiful
Yeah, you, who are brilliant
Yeah, you, who are powerful
Yeah, you, who are resilient – India Arie (Beautiful Flower)

Roses of Black

Holds my interest and the key to my success
Takes my energy and begs for my best

Formed by the elite of the overworked and underpaid
and some who may get that job any day

we looked around saw a need
and minds started to flee

from the confines of our head and ran in the pen
and it was then the journey began

I and she and then them would become one
no not for play, leisure, or fun

but with hope that the city we would Run

We entered
we departed
we actively serve
and now together we create the luxury
we deserve


Hoping you too will see
that this we are
you really want to be

For we are Roses of Black
Rare,
sought after
prestigious
tasteful
timeless
Confident fulfillment of your upscale needs

We are indeed,

BlackRose

Dedicated to my partners of BlackRose Events and OneRose Foundation
With Love I submit
Roses of Black

Man on my Mind: Cortland Finnegan

Where have you been hiding?

OK Ladies as I promised in the intro I will be sharing my thoughts on a few good men...
Our 1st featured man for the Month of February 2010 is:

Cortland Finnegan

(February Man on my Mind)

Born in Fayetteville, NC, 25 year old Finnegan stands a solid 5'9 weighing in at 188 is and He is such a cutie with a beautiful smile and playful personality (my observations on CMT Cribs)
He is definitely one for the eyes and interest!

Cortland was selected by the Tennessee Titans as the seventh pick of the seventh round (215th overall) his current position is Cornerback (Lady-note: A cornerback (aka corner) is a member of the defensive backfield or secondary. Cornerbacks cover receivers, to defend against pass offenses and make tackles.)#

Honorable: Cortland has his own Foundation "The Cortland Finnegan ARK 31 Foundation" is a non-profit organization which aims to assist children with special needs and disabilities in Tennessee.

Interesting Fact about Finnegan: His mom is Irish

Why Cortland is the man on my mind: I peeped him on TV and fell in love with his personality, his emphasis on his Irish background stood out, his energy is high, age range, He is giving back and His birthday is February 2 (Happy Birthday) so I felt it necessary to feature him as the

February Man on my Mind

!



References:
"Finnegan Named AFC Defensive Player of the Week". titansradio.com.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cortland_Finnegan

Good for the SOUL!

My Presence is Warm and comforting
Like homemade vegetable and beef soup in the middle of December

My essence is sweet and lingering
Like fresh butter biscuits straight from the oven with honey dripping

My Words are deep and heavy
Like that good cast iron pan that produces the greatest eggs and pancakes
(You were not sure of that was pepper or a pan flake but you ate it any way lol)

I Digress

Now back to the realness

Goodness

My intelligence is expected yet surprising
Like the first bite on Thanksgiving perceived to be better today than it was on Sunday
But really it’s the same

My love is time-honored and timeless
Like that recipe your momma uses but you have never seen actually written
Just remembered, experienced, and passed down

I am Green tea,

Vitamin C,

hot soup,

humidifier,

The thick blanket because you are cold

The cool fan because all of sudden you are hot

I am your favorite spot

I am the secret spice of your life and

You act you do not know that, I am simply

Good for your Soul

Better

I just want to see you do better


I am not angry

I do not blame you

I do not deny my love for you


I just want to see you do better


I do not hold grudges

I have no plans for revenge

I do not judge you


I just want to see you do better


I do not doubt you

I do not wish you were different

I wish things were different


I just want to see you do better


I do not ask God questions anymore

I do not cry anymore

I am not ashamed of you or the situation


I just want to see you do better


I will not always understand your way of thinking

I will not always like what you do

I will not always like you, however,


I just want to see you do better


With all of that said,

I forgive you

I promise to be there

I promise to love you through it all because


I just want to see you do better!

Simply

I cried for Him
Begged to be in his presence
To lay my head on chest and just weep
let it all go in his arms
Wanted Him to rock me back to safety
Wanted Him to be near, close, in and by
apart of me I wanted Him to be
I wished, wanted, desired and dreamed
Not realizing He was already there
He heard my inner despair and heard my soul cry
He spoke to me
Immersed me in his words
each one piercing me like sewing needles
and He was the tailor of my being
binding the new fabric to old
to mend the holes in my soul left by the previous suitors
He consumed me
Eased my mind
Began to reveal the answer to the riddle of ME
He picked me up
asking nothing in return
because HE

Simply LOVES ME!!