Just a Reminder He Loves me!

So It's Valentine's Day and me being the single Diva I am, I can't say I wanted to avoid the day or the couples and PDA...

I truly embrace the Day of love but...

My weekend was so great... I had an unique opportunity to see the
The Alvin Ailey American Dance Company (http://www.alvinailey.org);

It was awesome the seats were great (shouts to row 7) and my dates were awesome as well (Sherelle and Tiffany)
The Dancers were so powerful, they began with a Tribute to Otis Redding and ended the showing with a piece called "Love Stories" a unique blend of popular dances moves from theater to the dancehall
Not to mention the male dancers who illustrate exactly what the male form should look like and displayed it all so well while remaining tasteful and poised. I enjoyed every slow intentional moment!

Ok fast forward
V-day 2010

I began the day with the love of my life and expressing my gratitude for His continual love and mercy! I was reminded during the sermon that God loves me….Actively! Thank you God!

Got a few random text messages (ugh)

Continued with an awesome lunch with the ladies, which is always an adventure and the greatest conversation!

To the house I go Balloons and flowers for my mom, who always gets me a tangible expression of her love for V-day however this year she didn’t and it began my downward spiral into self afflicted internal wounds with thoughts like no one loves me, I should just go to sleep until Monday, etc . Not to mention someone is playing games with my heart and I just realized it and felt a lil stupid.

But then it hit me I am loved and loved well
I am beautiful and worthy of so much

God loves me so much that he does not allow just anything for me, so no day of any year should ever make me feel less than the Love God actively bestows upon me. He always provides the best (Alvin Ailey dancers row 7 yea) So I played Beautiful flower 3 times and I was reminded that GOD LOVES ME and I He!
Happy Valentine’s Day!

This is a song for every girl who's
Ever been through something she thought she couldn't make it through
I sing these words because
I was that girl too
Wanting something better than this
But who do I turn to

Now we're moving from the darkness into the light
This is the defining moment of our lives

'Cause you're beautiful like a flower
More valuable than a diamond
You are powerful like a fire
You can heal the world with your mind

There is nothing in the world that you cannot do
When you believe in you, who are beautiful
Yeah, you, who are brilliant
Yeah, you, who are powerful
Yeah, you, who are resilient – India Arie (Beautiful Flower)

Roses of Black

Holds my interest and the key to my success
Takes my energy and begs for my best

Formed by the elite of the overworked and underpaid
and some who may get that job any day

we looked around saw a need
and minds started to flee

from the confines of our head and ran in the pen
and it was then the journey began

I and she and then them would become one
no not for play, leisure, or fun

but with hope that the city we would Run

We entered
we departed
we actively serve
and now together we create the luxury
we deserve


Hoping you too will see
that this we are
you really want to be

For we are Roses of Black
Rare,
sought after
prestigious
tasteful
timeless
Confident fulfillment of your upscale needs

We are indeed,

BlackRose

Dedicated to my partners of BlackRose Events and OneRose Foundation
With Love I submit
Roses of Black

Man on my Mind: Cortland Finnegan

Where have you been hiding?

OK Ladies as I promised in the intro I will be sharing my thoughts on a few good men...
Our 1st featured man for the Month of February 2010 is:

Cortland Finnegan

(February Man on my Mind)

Born in Fayetteville, NC, 25 year old Finnegan stands a solid 5'9 weighing in at 188 is and He is such a cutie with a beautiful smile and playful personality (my observations on CMT Cribs)
He is definitely one for the eyes and interest!

Cortland was selected by the Tennessee Titans as the seventh pick of the seventh round (215th overall) his current position is Cornerback (Lady-note: A cornerback (aka corner) is a member of the defensive backfield or secondary. Cornerbacks cover receivers, to defend against pass offenses and make tackles.)#

Honorable: Cortland has his own Foundation "The Cortland Finnegan ARK 31 Foundation" is a non-profit organization which aims to assist children with special needs and disabilities in Tennessee.

Interesting Fact about Finnegan: His mom is Irish

Why Cortland is the man on my mind: I peeped him on TV and fell in love with his personality, his emphasis on his Irish background stood out, his energy is high, age range, He is giving back and His birthday is February 2 (Happy Birthday) so I felt it necessary to feature him as the

February Man on my Mind

!



References:
"Finnegan Named AFC Defensive Player of the Week". titansradio.com.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cortland_Finnegan

Good for the SOUL!

My Presence is Warm and comforting
Like homemade vegetable and beef soup in the middle of December

My essence is sweet and lingering
Like fresh butter biscuits straight from the oven with honey dripping

My Words are deep and heavy
Like that good cast iron pan that produces the greatest eggs and pancakes
(You were not sure of that was pepper or a pan flake but you ate it any way lol)

I Digress

Now back to the realness

Goodness

My intelligence is expected yet surprising
Like the first bite on Thanksgiving perceived to be better today than it was on Sunday
But really it’s the same

My love is time-honored and timeless
Like that recipe your momma uses but you have never seen actually written
Just remembered, experienced, and passed down

I am Green tea,

Vitamin C,

hot soup,

humidifier,

The thick blanket because you are cold

The cool fan because all of sudden you are hot

I am your favorite spot

I am the secret spice of your life and

You act you do not know that, I am simply

Good for your Soul

Better

I just want to see you do better


I am not angry

I do not blame you

I do not deny my love for you


I just want to see you do better


I do not hold grudges

I have no plans for revenge

I do not judge you


I just want to see you do better


I do not doubt you

I do not wish you were different

I wish things were different


I just want to see you do better


I do not ask God questions anymore

I do not cry anymore

I am not ashamed of you or the situation


I just want to see you do better


I will not always understand your way of thinking

I will not always like what you do

I will not always like you, however,


I just want to see you do better


With all of that said,

I forgive you

I promise to be there

I promise to love you through it all because


I just want to see you do better!

Simply

I cried for Him
Begged to be in his presence
To lay my head on chest and just weep
let it all go in his arms
Wanted Him to rock me back to safety
Wanted Him to be near, close, in and by
apart of me I wanted Him to be
I wished, wanted, desired and dreamed
Not realizing He was already there
He heard my inner despair and heard my soul cry
He spoke to me
Immersed me in his words
each one piercing me like sewing needles
and He was the tailor of my being
binding the new fabric to old
to mend the holes in my soul left by the previous suitors
He consumed me
Eased my mind
Began to reveal the answer to the riddle of ME
He picked me up
asking nothing in return
because HE

Simply LOVES ME!!

One Step in His Way

Why are things not going my way...

In the last few weeks I have found myself wondering what my next move should be?
What is best for me?
What do I want to do?
What does God want from me?
Why would He give me such a task?
Why am I afraid to do what He has asked me to do?
Why do I hesitate?
Why don't I trust in him more?

well, the first "Reality Check"
I don't spend enough time with him to get the answers and comfort, He is willing to give. (Different day - Different blog)

Secondly...

On Sunday Dec 13, 2009 I was asked , "If you were standing before Jesus, what do you think He would ask you to change in order to follow Him?

Immediately it came to me..He would ask me to give up "my way"

Strange.... well let me explain

All of my life I have been quite a unique character with a very direct point of view...

I consider myself to be very helpful however, whenever I am asked to do something I mean anything I usually get it done but I have to do it MY WAY.

Now this is not a "my way or the highway" type rebellion it is more of a "it would probably work better if I did it this way and in my time"

I have always been that way. I remember being a little girl every time someone taught me something I had to change it up and find a pattern that was right for me.

and as you would know it that mentality has ruled all areas of my life more recently my spiritual journey..

I had to do it my way...

GOD has been tugging at my heart for a long time to do what He has purposed me to do and as always I have been trying to do it my way I have tried to fit it into my list of things to accomplish in my time and my comfort zone ....

OK so that is not working because GOD IS NOT HAVING THAT! lol

So what I have decided to do was

Challenge myself to create better habits that would assist me in Following God the way He intended me to..

The Goals

Organize, plan, prepare, think critically, be open-minded, be timely, be internally-motivated, be consistent, lead and follow with flexibility

Challenge one:
Complete process for seminary
Progress:paid admissions and scheduled Spring Classes