One Step in His Way

Why are things not going my way...

In the last few weeks I have found myself wondering what my next move should be?
What is best for me?
What do I want to do?
What does God want from me?
Why would He give me such a task?
Why am I afraid to do what He has asked me to do?
Why do I hesitate?
Why don't I trust in him more?

well, the first "Reality Check"
I don't spend enough time with him to get the answers and comfort, He is willing to give. (Different day - Different blog)

Secondly...

On Sunday Dec 13, 2009 I was asked , "If you were standing before Jesus, what do you think He would ask you to change in order to follow Him?

Immediately it came to me..He would ask me to give up "my way"

Strange.... well let me explain

All of my life I have been quite a unique character with a very direct point of view...

I consider myself to be very helpful however, whenever I am asked to do something I mean anything I usually get it done but I have to do it MY WAY.

Now this is not a "my way or the highway" type rebellion it is more of a "it would probably work better if I did it this way and in my time"

I have always been that way. I remember being a little girl every time someone taught me something I had to change it up and find a pattern that was right for me.

and as you would know it that mentality has ruled all areas of my life more recently my spiritual journey..

I had to do it my way...

GOD has been tugging at my heart for a long time to do what He has purposed me to do and as always I have been trying to do it my way I have tried to fit it into my list of things to accomplish in my time and my comfort zone ....

OK so that is not working because GOD IS NOT HAVING THAT! lol

So what I have decided to do was

Challenge myself to create better habits that would assist me in Following God the way He intended me to..

The Goals

Organize, plan, prepare, think critically, be open-minded, be timely, be internally-motivated, be consistent, lead and follow with flexibility

Challenge one:
Complete process for seminary
Progress:paid admissions and scheduled Spring Classes